Paranoid Chaperon On Edge

Have you ever at the verge of explosion? Not likely the type of physical exhaustion but mentally tensed on every strands of your nerve. Gosh I dunno how I put these in words because It's not verbally describable, super-annoying? No. Let's put It these ways.. the feeling is kind of like someone running their sharp fingernails over the raw paper that pierces through your ears,sending jolt of goose bumps at the same time.. and your best friends having good time doing this to you just because they knew it bugged you the most?


Or some paranoid teenager occasionally found a few strands of woman's hair coming through their door crack .. and then sometimes they overheard something breathing under the carpet, thinking It's some sort of paranormal activity going on in their bedroom .. but It was actually a bunch of crazy mothers spying on their children whose probably hitting the puberty at the age of 13. No? Just me? whatever *shrug*


.. and your chaperon wonder why nowadays kids can spend hours and hours in front of the computer screen, a box that always stays mute (headphone) and curious enough to spy but totally forgot there is something called 'REFLECTION' so there is like a pair of ghostly eye staring in the screen that won't go away for so long.. **and yes gramma, you finally figured out that the moving icons was actually one of the fb's applications - Restaurant City.. :)
(Don't bother to add me in RC, I ald retired. Still up to other application like Country Story, though.)



Actually today I was quite upset despite I had an emotional outburst this morning.. and I was still emotional unstable after going through a troublesome application.. well, actually the application form was easy to fill but it was just someone who.. nvm, forget that.. It was a rough day.. All I wanted to say is people should aware what is the right thing to do at the right moment regarding, speech, action or thinking and there is a bottom-line of being angry - That is I believe people deserved to be pissed off but don't be rude even though people treat you the other way round. I learned the best way is to shut up and listen, nod and especially never challenge people with authority because It does you no good, at all. Sigh..but this morning someone say something that provokes me.. It's somehow triggered the emotion I have suppressed inside me for so long. Of course I'm no mad at him but whenever that topic being brought out, It hits me so hard. A mixed feeling of anguish and agony, beseeching and bewilderment,challenged and contradict,dangled and dumbfound, otherwise known as a total breakdown. Luckily, a BFF of mine recognized me feeding on anger and the darkness within is gone with one sentence was all it takes to knock some sense back into my head. Another good friend of mine once told me 'do not be the slave of your emotion, be the owner' and this is very true. It is that simple and I can do that, maybe someday you might surprise I went by the lake fishing using just string.. lol maybe that is too much exaggeration on being patient .. well nothing Is Impossible.. Transform!