Rise of an Empire

The red curtain is finally drawing closer for 2011 after a round of applause. It is going to be a new day, a new year and a new start. Year 2011 has been a roller coaster ride for me, I have encountered many highs and many lows at many points of my life.

Just a moment ago, I sat down and I heard a crack. Looking down, I see my clothe hanger that is already in shortage deforms and falls apart. Breaking hanger is definitely not a big deal, I have broken things far worst than just a damn hanger. Over the year 2011, I have broke my body, my heart and my spirit, which is something I am not proud to say out loud. Having that said, I am ready to embrace my weakness as recognizing my limits makes me understand the incomplete part of me. It is a shame but this serves as a long-term stick note that reminds me not to fall into the same Pithole city. As a true survivor, It makes me realized how much stronger I want to be.

As for the point of view on year 2012, the Maya calender ceases to count when the last page gets ripped away from year 2011's calender, as if the end of the world lies upon the judgement day. I do not believe 2012 is the end, I see this as the end of a dark tunnel leading to a whole new world. Like an oak tree that sheds leaves in winter and blossom again on the coming spring, I am anticipating my rebirth and rehabilitation. My new year resolution is to conquer, to surpass and to better myself. So everybody let's cheers to the upcoming wonderful New Year!

Litttle Mice craving for foods!

It is already past 1 a.m and I am wide awake on my bed, debating with myself whether or not to get some supper. Nah.. I should probably shed some pounds before stuffing more fats in my body. All my jeans are getting tight and I never had this issue before. Sigh.. This is probably my wake up call. Either I start cutting down my sugary and oily food intakes or I go to school naked starting next month, the coldest month of the year - winter! It is probably best for my health too, I have to constantly remind myself to stay away from the coffee pot before I turned into both drug addict and diabetic patient. Oh well, I guess I put myself to bed with some soothing piano melody and STOP craving for foods!!

Writer Block

It has been a long time since I posted something on this blog. I still visit back every now and then to read and recapture my sweet moments. Time after time, I have been unable to write because I do not wish to plunge this sacred place into total eclipse of darkness. I guess this is what so call writer block. But here I am, being confused or rather dumbfounded, wondering why some people had to make others live in misery. Was it the nuisance talk or was it just me being vulnerable, something really irritates me. Winter comes early this year, the chill is definitely not foreign to what I felt on my left chest. Maybe I am just physically exhausted to cause me losing all my appetite and strength. But what really mocking me is I am heartbroken by someone that shares my bloodline. Smiling is difficult when you know your foes have been anticipate your fall and ready to step on your pride, like squashing ants to ashes, tearing you down to nothingness. Sigh, I really want to make my parents proud so they can have their chins up and backs straight in front of everyone. If only I am brave enough to tell my feelings to them or even someone I can trust, or to my brothers. Someday, someway, somehow.. I'll work my butt to the top and tell all the haters to shut the f** up! If only I am braver..

Keep on fighting

Be a soldier, be a man.
I fight for the things I like and for the people I love.
As this is my ultimate gear of motivation, I continue to excel.
Your presence is my fuel, so I'm here because of you.
Forgive my ignorant sometimes, we know time is hard and world can be blind.
Fighting for everything and everything, so I held it in.
I sacrifice so I can preserve the present and secure the future.
Hopefully all is well..

Dad's Birthday

Other than Chinese New Year, my family rarely eat out together.
Today is a special occasion, It is my dad's birthday today. So we have decided to show the old man some love.
We went to a Vietnamese restaurant for some delicious noodles.
As for dessert, we had some fulfilling Baskin Robin's ice cream cake.
I would say that was the best meal ever based on satisfactory and my bloated stomach. I will sum up the day as an appetizing spring roll - everything go together and taste well together.
Again, Happy Birthday Dad!

Double Rainbows

You and I, both
Paradox to the rainbow ends
Together, we climb and we fall.

Like dreamy double rainbows
Waking up from the storms
Sensing you linger by my side.

Could it be delusion?
or symbiosis reflection?
Would someone please explain.

Our paths may never cross
But I thank you always
For walking me throughout the mazes.

P.S. I just want to let all the people I adore to know our friendship will never die. Always heart you guys. =)

Jar of Hearts

Nice voice and nice lyrics.. =)

No, I can't take one more step towards you
‘Cause all that's waiting is regret
Don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live, half alive
And now you want me one more time

[Chorus:]
Who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

I've learned to live, half alive
And now you want me one more time

[Chorus]

It took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
‘Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back

Who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?

Samsung Galaxy Prevail

My very first Android, Samsung Galaxy Prevail from Boost Mobile!
I just got it this morning, can't wait to see what else this baby can do!
I'm psyched! Tehe!

Funny people, Funny life.

I hate losing control to myself. Today I felt like I have lost myself to an extreme pressure test. Sleep deprive, starvation and sore muscles brought me to an absolute devastation. I found myself losing patient to retards no matter the fault was on whoever side. The more I think about it, the more it aggravates me. I can only blame me for being immature and irrational.

Well, there is always the first time of anything. Today was also the first time I fell partly asleep in someone's car while rock and roll musics were tearing down the background. I think Randall purposely put on the loud music just to irritate me like he always do. I was a mess today. I have made a couple of people laughing out loud, simply because I made a total fool out of myself, which was a good thing. Yes, I have a bad day today but I certainly don't wish it the same upon somebody cuz that is just not right.

Sometimes I wish I was born with a smiley face so laughing is not tiresome or pretending. Speaking of which, it reminds me of Andrew, a guy that I get to know about a week ago. He always carries a smug on his face but that is how the way he looks, or maybe he just has a carefree nature. On top of his easy going smug, Andrew is a quarter Irish, a quarter french and also possess blond hair, blue eyes American. One has to pay respect for the wow factors cuz that is some Awesome blend of traits, talking about fanatic family blessing.

I wonder when I start to admire what I see on others. It makes me worry that I will change myself for the wrong sakes. Let it be my eyes color is not right, the hair does not falls the same way or something way absurd. Jason Mraz once said that "to dream of the person you would like to be is to waste the person you are," that is why I respect Mraz man so much. Something funny is definitely going around me for today. Guess I am just worn out and strive to seek comforts from others, which is exactly what I am doing right now, drawing strength from those who are reading this. To those who are offering me a tiny bit of sympathy, thank you so much for listening.

I know this blog is getting long and whiny so I guess I will end this post with a smiley face =)

Shopping Day

Wassup readers!
What is up is I went shopping at Walmart and Home Depot with my beloved family today.
I found what I like and of course I have to pay for them.
It is a shame that after being here for 11 months, I am still having problem with spending my money.
See, the USD exchange rate is almost three times the Ringgit Malaysia.
Likewise, I spent 50 bucks in US was equivalently to RM 150.
Just my clothing and stationary can cost a lot!

On the check out, the cashier lady acted funny all sudden.
Indeed, she was the funniest lady I have ever met..
Although she was a bit crazy but nice and sociable.
My mum kidded that she should get a bag free since we bought many.
She responded with "no, free stuffs don't fall from the rain, they come from your ribs" as she poked on her back and cracked out loud.

It might be just a mere phrase that crossed her mind but that was so true and such words that inspire much deep down here.
I feel bad all sudden for buying so many stuffs but what have been done can never be undone.
But I am going to forgive myself this time as I am not the one who spend my money like running water.
I have to confess that I really enjoy shopping on the kids section.
I bought three kids rulers that curled up like a bracelet when flexed.
Yes I am a grown up kids but I don't care what people thinks of me.
What can I say, I am a big kid on inside out!

Where my money at?

Hey what's up guys!
I just had some pizzas and milk for my dinner.
That was my full proper course for the meal of the entire day.
Boo-hu.. I really need some better nutritious foods.
Maybe I go get some blueberries supplements.
Anything blue do me a favor, don't ask why.

It has been a long day for me.
Only because I went to bed very late last night, probably 3 a.m.
I had to woke myself up as early as 9 for my morning shift.
It wasn't too bad as I managed to take an hour nap and head back to my night shift.
I really enjoy my shifts as I get to learn different stuffs every day.
Like today, I get to dock and slap the pizza dough.
I have lost count of the doughs but it was trays after trays.
Note: I am feeling the utmost sensational cramps on my right arm as I am typing this ridiculously long post!
The pizza making process was tiring but I really appreciate the mini workouts as I felt it did me a favor for my muscles building!

On side note, I get to save some pocket money this summer.
What is better than getting pay for working out?
There was an accident when I was folding the boxes at work.
I got a deep paper cut and only realize that when the jalapenos burns my wound! *yikes* Not cool at all!
I don't really mind wearing my body out cuz I know I am capable of handling the pressure.
So basically, haul ass and getting paid is the only thing I care lol.
Chaqing* ($o$)
I shall work when I am still young and singing dollar dollar bill at age 45 with early retirement!

Blame procrastination!

Yoyoyo! How is it going?
How do you do, readers? (If someone still reading this)
It has been awhile!
What I have to say is blogging takes dedication.
Once you procrastinate, your blog gets old and empty.
I still have many things to say but I have been busy with life.
What happen was I often hold my today-topics to be blog afterward and they always ended up weeks and months later or sometimes never.
What I see now is just halfway through drafts loaded up my freaking page and I don't feel like posting them up. The reason behind is same as restaurant selling bad meats to the customers. Like someone can report me to health inspector for selling old topic/chicken.
If you get what I mean.

By the way, summer holiday was better than what I've expected.
I am still as shy as ever but people come to talk to me sometimes.
I have reconnect with my old pals thanks to facebook and msn messenger.
All I have to say is thank you for the company.
It means a lot to me.

Anyway, school starts in August 16.
I am not even hooked up to some classes.
I really need to register for the spot.
What a terrible procastinator I am!
Shame on me!
Sigh and double sigh..
Change! I need a change!
Better me!
Better world!
I believe!

NKOTBSB

So what's a NKOTBSB? New Kids On The Block and Backstreet boys collapse concert at Lafayette, Louisiana! WOOT!



The concert was great and the performance was rich!
I'll give a 9 out of 10!
Now these are the elements that make the concert a big success!

They have guest star like the past American Idol winner Jordin Sparks.


Sexy dance move!


Great collaboration of NKOTBSB!


Burst a move back in 1985!


Showing fans some love!


Smoke and fireworks Bang!


Silk costume and blings!


Big stage!


Stage elevator!


Crazy fans!


And m3! Kidding!

My Sakura Bud

If solitude is what meant for only the singles.
Then, argument between two couples is an unassailable phenomena.
I personally find it is hard to appreciate boisterous relationship.
Simple is what I admire but it is nothing close to what I pursue.
Still, because of that, I have missed many lovey dovey moments that I could have over the years and it is all wasted.
My friends, my siblings and all people around me have found their summer romance where their cherry blossoms in full bloom.
The scent of love is in the air filling every nasals. The pungent stimuli is hard to be ignored and it is getting my hormones aroused for sure.
I know love can not be rushed and all I can do is just pray and wait for the nonexistent person to be exist.
Right now, I do appreciate my very quality solitude as having enough personal time, for me to think and sort out what I really need to become, is perhaps one of the best plan ahead I ever had.
Hey, being single is not that bad after all.

A little of something..

*Katy and Brett giggle*

Ed : What?

Katy: Oh no.. It's just that your hair looks like .. You know the store that sells those caps with fake hair sticking out..

Ed : Do you know where can I get one?

*Brett chuckles*

Brett: You don't need that man, you already got one.

Ed: But I'm selling mine.

*giggle continue*

Since I will be working throughout the summer, a little of something makes my day at my work place =)

With my school-less life, this summer can still be cool!

Though Drew is now gone, there will be one less laughter in the stall.

Still, I am hoping the fun times won't just stop here.

Get In, Sit Down, Buckle Up and Shut Up!

It has been almost a year since I blended in American lifestyle. Yet, I am still counting how many times I get in the car from the right, glance over to my left and go "There you are, steering wheel".. Today is the third time, but it wasn't me this time. I found myself standing next to the driver seat on the left while the driver of the day almost got in the front passenger seat. Welcome to America, my beloved Aunt Kate! It is good for her to know that traffic regulation in America is what opposite to our driving knowledge acquired in back-home who follows British system : We travel in opposite direction here.

"Go Right Lane! Your right lane!" I said to my Aunt who just settle in the country for less than three months. "You supposed to say wrong lane," she stumbled on her words as she realized the car was coming on her way or rather she was using the wrong lane. Here I am, giving lecture to the rookie while the first day of me driving in America was a disaster. I was driving on the main street at peek hours and everything is still vividly engraved on my brain. I had five passengers in the car and I was given five different directions to go. That was a holy crap of six navigations in total! By just thinking of that gives me goosebumps .. or was it the chill in the air?

"Wow! I can't believe his car is still in good shape!" Uncle Willie kidded. I gave him a shrug and play dumb. To be frank, I am not a big fan of driving but that doesn't makes me a reckless driver. I always buckle up and drive Safe! No, I lied. I just don't want to pay for any photos mailed to my house, showing only my sexy back and my license plate. Yeah, paying hundred bucks of faceless picture will be awesome! I probably look like this before the flash on the junction :
Yellow light! Still Yellow! Oh NOoo!
See the sign up there that says Get In, Sit Down, Buckle Up and Shut Up? I'm going to print it out 24-inch and stick it to my windshield, hope the lady can read!

To The Infity and Beyond

I woke up 9 a.m. this morning. Knowing that school is over, I have nothing particular task to complete. Who knows, I might become a backpacker and hit the road since my treasured bike is moved from Uni to my home. I can travel far with my bike and I shall walk miles with my inflate tires. It's just a dream, of course, to travel from place to place until I meet the horizon at the other end of the world where I can see the sun rises and sets. To the infinity~

Worst case scenario

On this day, at this moment, I am taunted and hunted with algebra equations and syntax codes. My brain is extremely saturated whenever It's around final week.

I had an exam at 8 o'clock this morning and what is the worst situation can a student candidate expects was major traffic jam. Dang! I made it to the exam hall on time with my nibble feet but just to realize my lecturer was ten minutes late. I was pissed, why ran all the way to my class when my lecturer was probably sipping coffee cup on her comfy office chair. FYI, she never ever show up on time, EVER!

The tests were super hard, my 4 flats dream is officially a gone case. Sigh.. Anyway, 2 more finals to go on Friday and Hallelujah Baby!

Brick break!

Once again, I went for my couponing job this morning. Me and my door-hanging team set off at 10 a.m. and we cover the whole neighborhood of Louisiana by 1 p.m. It was a big ass neighborhood, Jennifer said.
Bad luck, I got separated from my assigned teammate, Jennifer and they searched for me like an hour or more. Think It's finally a good time for me to get an expensive mobile phone plan? Yeah.. I'm probably the only phone-less college student in UL.
I stepped on a dead rat when I went to hang a coupon on a big fancy house. Who knows rat's ceremony can be grand? I always thought brick houses were dull but what I seen today were truly beautiful and definitely classy! It's 11 p.m. right now and I have to wake up early for tomorrow job. How wonderful is my Spring Break huh? My holiday is packed like a brick! On the bright side, It's systematic and healthy right?

Spring break's mini workouts

Two days ago..
Lessie : So Ed (Me), what you doing for spring break?
Me: Homework..
Lessie : Me too!!

Morning at work..
Lessie : I'm not a big fan of couponing.. That's at least I can say..
Me : At least not early in the morning on the coldest day of the week..
.......
Me : I am hungry..
Lessie : I am tired.. I just want to go back to bed..
Me : Are you serious? On spring break?
Lessie : I'm dead serious! Probably get drunk.. What about you?
Me : Nice! I'm learning how to cook and plant vegetable.
Lessie : *Tch! (laugh)
Me : See, It's an Asians thing. We grow our own foods.
Lessie : I noticed!
.......


After three and half hours of walking and climbing stairs..
Lessie : Ed! So you had a lot of fun (sarcastically)!
Me : Yeah~ My spring break is awesome! Thank you!

Sigh.. Not doing any homework today for sure!
The only worth mentioning up side is I just made a viva sushi fest for my family.
I am super tired after all those mini workouts..
Guess I just go and take a quick nap before I head back to my night shift again.

Spring Break! Gimme a break!

What's up! So I have been telling my friend, Conrad how I wish I can get a day off like Spring Break. Spring Break is next Monday but today is Friday which means It's already an official Holiday! WOOT~ Before heading to my lass class this morning, Conrad wishes me a good Spring Break which turns out to be a disaster today. After my class, I went to the Computer Science lab to finish up my compiling assignment. I sat there for 3 hours straight bumping into walls after walls. It was decided for me to head back for work and come back school later. At work, I accidentally cut myself while chopping carrots and it bleeds for awhile. As if not enough, I get off at 9:30 p.m. and I still have to go back to school for my darn assignment! When I got home, everyone was looking for me when I don't even have a phone with me and I'm probably the only college student that do not have a mobile phone in United State lol. I feel bad for making everyone worried about me, including my Uncle who sound asleep at 2 a.m. in the morning. Sigh.. what a journey.. Well.. All Is Well.. That's my slogan for life!

Colored eyes

How I wish my eyes were colored so that everything I see in this world is not just black or white. There are so many things I see in your eyes, sparks that I do not have. It is so captivating and I want to see more. Somehow, I knew that delicate pairs of yours are my guiding stars.

- Dedicate this post to a friend of mine. Friends forever. -

Is this count as annoying?

This past week has been a roller coaster ride.. Unexpecting lows and highs.. Is this count as mood swing or just plain annoying?

H3llo world!

Swing by and drop a big HI to my lovely blog..
Poor blog, you must be lonely boy.. No worries!
I updated the mp3 player for you and I hope you like it!

More tests are coming but I promise I will get my ass back to this blog as soon as I can! Adios!

Ken in the middle

Shall or shall not live in the past?
What if the future path is already intangible?
Where else can we live?
The past is past and the future is far..
Trap in this present waiting for destiny call.

Neither those who could not retreat themselves are painful.
Nor those who could not upgrade themselves are pitiful.
But those who could not determine their own positions are pathetic.

Who will ever want to be stuck in the middle of a mess ...
... making the right choices and finalizing the absolute decision...
... when nobody have no clue what is going on with this world?

Mardi Gras in Lafayette

Mardi Gras

This year Mardi Gras was teh best! Actually It was my first celebrated Mardi Gras but It was Awesome! It was like cloudy and a chance of raining beads! The rain didn't stop the passion of Lafayette. For those who don't know what Mardi Gras is, let me fill you in real quick.

So basically on 8th March, a parade will be going on where beads and presents are give away when the parade cars pass by. I took a hard hit on my forehead with the beads they thrown, my head felt dizzy and my tears filled up my eyes. It happens when the guy stood next to me grabbed the tail of the beads and the other ends bounce towards me! Still, I get to keep the beads. Yeah!

Oh they also have this delicious King Cake that basically a large piece of doughnut. Choices are original dough, cream cheese and chocolate fills. I'll say go for chocolate-filled King Cake! Somehow, the decorative baby sitting on the cake creeps me out. Whoever that 'ate' the baby had to buy the next King Cake as the tradition goes. (Provided that the person survived the choke!)

The parade was a sight to see, people were dancing to the beats and indulged in every moment of joys. To conclude what Mardi Gras really is, well, It was obviously a plain excuse made up for party and booze. I wish someday I can join the party in New Orleans cuz it was widely celebrate there, which means more party and more booze! LOL.. I had a lot of fun in the parade today, my family and I left the dirty parade routes after 5 hours of craziness and we went home with a big bag of beads and prizes. Of course, a satisfied smile on my face. =)

Will we need a holiday like this? Yes!!!

Good Life

Woke up in London yesterday
Found myself in the city near Piccadilly
Don't really know how I got here
I got some pictures on my phone

New names and numbers that I don't know
Address to places like Abbey Road
Day turns to night, night turns to whatever we want
We're young enough to say

Oh this has gotta be the good life
This has gotta be the good life
This could really be a good life, good life

Say oh, got this feeling that you can't fight
Like this city is on fire tonight
This could really be a good life
A good, good life

To my friends in New York, I say hello
My friends in L.A. they don't know
Where I've been for the past few years or so
Paris to China to Col-or-ado

Sometimes there's airplanes I can' t jump out
Sometimes there's bullshit that don't work now
We are god of stories but please tell me-e-e-e
What there is to complain about

When you're happy like a fool
Let it take you over
When everything is out
You gotta take it in

Hopelessly
I feel like there might be something that I'll miss
Hopelessly
I feel like the window closes oh so quick
Hopelessly
I'm taking a mental picture of you now
'Cuz hopelessly
The hope is we have so much to feel good about

One Art

*Tap himself on the shoulder and says Good Job!
After every exams, my brain feels empty..
And so, this is the time where all those crazy emotions step in.
Where all these negativity sources come from?
Sigh..
All I need is a moment of silence, recharge and then brings my chin high up again.
It was a crazy week cramped with formulas and test questions.
I had my first poem reading last week, I did Sonnet 18 that is teh classic love poem.
Why I choose the poem? The world need to spread more love I guess.
One of my classmate performed a poem called 'One Art'..
It was about losing something to a certain degree of significance and you felt the lost.
From losing key to losing estates and finally someone you love..
Now I am trying to think back what I've lost and gained..
Well,I lost my old life and I gain my new life..
Does that ever make sense?
No, life never makes sense but the element of suprise in our lives is what kept us going.
As a matter of fact, nothing suprises me anymore..
Cuz I have nothing to lose to my new life.
I'm like a homeless man who barely recovered from the Hurricane Katrina..
Loses something and never want to own anything precious again..
The sad part about this is that I am wishing everyone a good one but not for myself.
Is there somebody out there who claps for me when the stage light is on?
Or is there someone who laughs dry when I fall?

It's time to end this post and get back from where I started.. May all of us have a good one!

1st CNY gathering @ Americaa

I never thought that Chinese New Year could be fun this year.. Who knew CNY @ America can be as crazy as this.. Special thanks to Qing Qing, someone who I barely know, organized this gathering for us. Also, thanks to Meng Li and Joo Sing for introducing me to a bunch of people, they have no idea how their initiatives ease out my wracking nerve and I, the new face around really appreciate it. The best part of the day is the 'lao sheng,' in which we mix all kinds of vegetables with our chopsticks and yell out all the best wishes for the year of rabbit. That was freaking awesome! Nevertheless, I enjoy every delicacy dishes and the little photo shots with my voluntary models. Tehe.. Overall, I had a great time with a bunch of good Malaysian friends.. Finally, thanks to those old buddies who drop me some nice CNY comments on facebook. Have a prosperous rabbit year everyone!